MY LETTER of HOPE and OVERCOMING CANCER

I’m sitting here in awe and fully overwhelmed with Gratitude as I look back through time to August of 2011 when my journey with cancer began. This is a letter I wrote to God (and God to me) while waiting in a medical radiology office preparing for a CT pet scan.  I use the name God to refer to my Higher Power, Creator, Source or Universal Energy. I was at a very low time in my life consumed with fear, confused, alone with my feelings and completely uncertain of my future.  I am compelled to share this letter with you because it so poignantly brings to light the power of faith.  Perhaps you are finding yourself exactly in my shoes two years ago or know someone who is.  It is my desire that this letter will bring comfort in what ever healing crisis you may find yourself dealing with.  You see, I did not know this at the time but this letter is a letter of hope.  Hope in not only overcoming cancer but much more.

This is my Letter of Hope and Overcoming Cancer

Dear God,
Here I am sitting in this medical building drinking a large sweet glass of radioactive poison.  How toxic is this?  Who am I and where did my life go?  I am in the medical system and I am lined up like a sheep following the rest of the herd.  I am frightened for the fact that I am not supporting my own convictions. I have thrown them out when the heat gets turned up.  Why can’t I hear my inner voice?  What are my true beliefs?  Why do I feel so paralyzed to stand up for myself?
I am standing in a place of fear.  My fear is that if I will abandon myself so easily, I will do the same to you.
My fear is that my life will never be the same.  My fear is the unknown to come.  My fear is that I will not live.  My fear is that cancer is all through my body. My fear is that I will not have you with me to guide me through this.  My fear is of being alone.  My fear is that this is random and not a greater design.  My fear is that I will not know love.

Dear Leah,
I need you to know that I love you beyond what even you can imagine love to be.  I hold you in my arms and I gaze down into your eyes with such depth of love.  You need to know this and you need to know that I am protecting you always just like a mother bear protects her cubs.  We will go through this healing in your physical body together. I chose you Leah because I know that you will be able to use this experience to teach many of this journey.

Your journey is based on your love for me, love for your self and love of your spirit.  You and I know that this cancer is a physical shadow.  It comes not to destroy you but to be your teacher.  The teachings are in the journey.
I sense your fear and of being overwhelmed.  I know that your are unsure of the future and what the future will look like for you.  I know you are finding it hard to trust not only me but yourself.  I can see you feel like you are throwing away beliefs about healing and  being able to heal yourself.  Do not throw these out.  They are just as important if not mot more important then anything the medical community has to offer.  I am asking you to include the medical community in your journey, it will serve you too.  You will also need to seek out alternative and complimentary methods of treatment.

Keep your daily practice of walking and yoga as they are very important in keeping your mind clear and your body strong.  Meditation with me is top of the prescription regimen as it has always been.  Within your meditation you and I connect and communicate on a very deep level.  Please take the time to do this and even if something seems to get in the way I ask that you give me just a moment of silence to acknowledge our commitment to one another.

This road you are traveling now will not have an outward appearances of being easy.  It  will look difficult to those who are observing from the outer world.  Trust in me, lie your head on my shoulder and ease will flow.  Leah you are strong.  Remember to embrace the vision of yourself, flag in hand riding your white horse across the countryside. You are and have always been a teacher and you are hear to teach this too.

Listen for me I will be talking to you always.  When you feel alone and scared just call for me for I will hear you. Know that all is well.  I love you my dear sweet child.  Stay strong and when you feel vulnerable know that I am cradling you in my arms gazing down into you eyes with endless amounts of love.  Aum, Peace, Bliss, Amen

My name is Leah Putnam and I completely healed myself naturally of Breast Cancer (no surgery, radiation or chemotherapy) through diet, changing my lifestyle and my faith in the creator.   From this experience with cancer, I healed myself of much more.

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